Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I Am Pissed!

It was supposed to be a normal evening. I was supposed to go for my mandarin worship practice and finish by 8 plus. Then I would go buy my favorite wanton mee then go home to chill and rejoice over the fact that I am finally starting to serve God again. But nooooooooo, things just would not happen that way.

It started well. I managed to run faster longer today. Then I headed for the prac after my protein. Was intending to have dinner after. On my way there, I responded to a sms I received earlier from my worship coach who was asking if I could start playing keyboard next week. I replied that I needed more time since I did not feel up to it. He was kind enough to agree to my request, for a while that is.

When I reached, my coach almost immediately asked me to play for this Sunday. THIS SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I reluctantly agreed to it. Big Mistake! And there I was siting at the keyboard and struggling to play all the songs. The rest is not worth mentioning. On my way back (btw, I left at 1020 p.m.) I recalled the time when my sis and I were taken off the team in a split second and how in a split second I am back again. Yes, very petty I know. In any case, my next few days will be filled with grueling practice of my keyboard. I am trying hard to see good out of all these.

Frankly, my attitude has been pretty bad tonight. When the practice was unofficially over, I just took my stuff and disappeared. Hmmmm, seems like I need to deal with more than just practicing for my keyboard. God, I need patience, wisdom, strength and for now, sleep......

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