Vocal Class

I have signed up for a pop vocals course. When I told my sis, she said that I have too much time and money. Time I suppose so. But money not quite. I think she's right. I really do not know what I want in life. Crap! Is it that hard to find out? Seems so elusive. One moment I would like this and another I would like to have something else. God, I really need help. Then again, if God tells me what I should be doing, would I obey? What if it's not what I think I really would like. Maybe that's why I have not been too active in seeking His will for my life. Arrrrgh! Frustration. The feeling that drives human beings to insanity. Add on helplessness and you have the perfect recipe for disaster. Hmmm, feeling philosophical again I think. Oh gosh, think I really need to do things to occupy myself. Get a gf or something? Then again, I know that I am trying to bury something that will come up sooner or later to haunt me again. So, my conclusion for now? NOTHING! Great, I am back at square one. Confused......

Song

This song keeps coming to mind possibly due to the proximity of the 1st line of the song to the time I am at right now, which is 4:10 a.m. Have included the link, so enjoy,......







In a sentimental mood. Think you can see why,......

Feeling Down

Its one of those mornings again. It's 3:55 a.m. and I can't say that I am wide awake but neither am I lost in dreamland somewhere. I hate it. I know I am tired. I know I need rest but I just can't sleep. I think it's the weather. I think it's my stomach. I think it's just me. As usual, the thoughts just seem endless. And the realisation that there is a cockroach lurking somewhere in my room doesn't help at all. I thought I could just smash it and leave my helper to clear the corpse later in the morning. But my force was too light. I could not get it squashed between my charger and another container. Hack, I shall let the damned pest live, for another few hours that is. Back to my thoughts,......

Had dinner with my sis couple of hours back. It was great. I always enjoy time with her cos there's so much to catch up and to talk about. We had dinner at Hanabi (had sashimi which could account partly why my stomach feels weird) and we had dessert at this ice-cream place which I do not know the name. All was great. But I had something on my mind which I wanted to tell her or maybe confess to her about. Could not find the chance. Been looking forward to tonight partly so that I could off load some stuff with her. She's one of the very few whom I know I can share deep secrets with. Till the time came to part I still had not told her. So I went off feeling quite burdened inside. It's one of the few times I could almost feel the burden 'physically' inside of me. In any case, it was a belated celebration for her birthday. I guess I shouldn't let her go off feeling depressed rather than joyous right. Maybe another time......