Its one of those mornings again. It's 3:55 a.m. and I can't say that I am wide awake but neither am I lost in dreamland somewhere. I hate it. I know I am tired. I know I need rest but I just can't sleep. I think it's the weather. I think it's my stomach. I think it's just me. As usual, the thoughts just seem endless. And the realisation that there is a cockroach lurking somewhere in my room doesn't help at all. I thought I could just smash it and leave my helper to clear the corpse later in the morning. But my force was too light. I could not get it squashed between my charger and another container. Hack, I shall let the damned pest live, for another few hours that is. Back to my thoughts,......
Had dinner with my sis couple of hours back. It was great. I always enjoy time with her cos there's so much to catch up and to talk about. We had dinner at Hanabi (had sashimi which could account partly why my stomach feels weird) and we had dessert at this ice-cream place which I do not know the name. All was great. But I had something on my mind which I wanted to tell her or maybe confess to her about. Could not find the chance. Been looking forward to tonight partly so that I could off load some stuff with her. She's one of the very few whom I know I can share deep secrets with. Till the time came to part I still had not told her. So I went off feeling quite burdened inside. It's one of the few times I could almost feel the burden 'physically' inside of me. In any case, it was a belated celebration for her birthday. I guess I shouldn't let her go off feeling depressed rather than joyous right. Maybe another time......
Hey, feel so funny doing this but posting my comments here is cheaper than calling you and smsing you. God made me your sis coz' He knows He has given me the grace to handle listening to your deep secrets :) So pls off load ok? Esp if it is with another meal at hanabi :) - Sis
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