Worship Retreat 2016

It was great working with some peeps from the worship team to bring about our church worship retreat for this year. Actually, my usual lazy self would have declined helping with the retreat or any camp for that matter. But my worship buddies Amos and Hannah were in the committee this year and so I decided to help when they asked me. No regrets. Other than being part of the committee I also led worship during the second day. It really felt like I went into another realm of leading worship. For the fact that I so seldom lead worship it really amazes me when that happens. Somehow God is still holding on to me despite me. He really is faithful.....

Christmas Gift

It really felt nice when I received this gift from a colleague last Christmas. Think the note really made my day. Nice to know someone appreciates the effort I put into looking good. :)

That Must Have Hurt!

Saw this paper clip while peeing a couple of days ago. I know it must have been thrown in the bowl but I imagined if it wasn't. Guess it would have hurt A LOT!

My Inspiration

 I find myself very often despondent at my circumstances in life. Life often seem hopeless despite the fact I belong to and serve an almighty God. Think that sometimes make the situation worse since my life far from depicts the life I believe God has in store for me. The disparity between faith and reality seems to tear on the inside of me all the time. Then at times I come across videos and testimonies that bring hope in life. The above is one such video. Up till now, I still cannot understand why certain things are the way they are, but it's definitely inspiring to see people keep an attitude of faith and hope despite.

Father while I do not understand why many things are the way they are, I ask you to help me live and react the way you would have me to, the way that pleases Your heart. Thank you Father......

Drums at St Paul's

It's been the longest time since I got to play drums in a church setting. I was kind of apprehensive cos the last time I played in church I really struggled. I felt very pressured and stressed. As a result, I decided to take a hiatus from drums for the time being. So when Daniel asked me to play, I was kind of reluctant. But I agreed cos it was also Ian's last session with us at St Paul's. So I decided to just go ahead though I felt totally unprepared for this. Thank God Daniel was really patient with me and really helpful as well. Really calmed my nerves a lot when I played with his leading.

That's Ian, a really good boy. Gonna miss him when he goes to Aus with his parents......

Kung Fu Panda 3

I was told by a couple of colleagues this sequel was not as enjoyable as the previous one. A colleague mentioned that she preferred Zootopia cos it was more meaningful. So I was a little apprehensive about the movie prior. But I was glad after watching it that I enjoyed it almost as much as the previous ones. As much as I prefer to watch 'brainless' movies, I think this stuck with me from the movie. The truth about being yourself. For those who have not caught it yet, part of Po's task was to teach his people Kung Fu to protect themselves. Finally, instead of trying to teach them a set of Kung Fu skills, he ended up having them learn and adopt Kung Fu according to their natural strengths, being themselves.

That stuck with me. For most of life, I feel like I've been trying to be like someone, to act like and to feel like them. I wanna look like this person. If only I could have that kind of physique. If only I could sound like that. If only I had that kind of features. If only I had that range of voice. And the list goes on and on. Someone once said," when you try to be like someone, you'll only end up second best." How true. Unfortunately I really struggle with this. I sometimes envy how a friend can be so secure in his skinny frame and still exude such confidence. Guess it's a journey for me although it's taking awfully long to get through this one. 😆

My First Ride in A Porsche

My brother-in-law was really thoughtful to give me a ride in his Porsche a couple of nights ago. I've been bugging my sis to drive me in the car since I found out her hubby had bought it. It was really more for the experience than anything. I can remember when I started out in my career a sports car would have been a goal to own one fine day, especially if my investments worked out. So obviously my investments never quite worked out the way I would have it. ;) Sad story aside, the offer was great since I had an especially tough day at work that particular day. So after dinner, I happily walked with my bro-in-law and my nephew to the car.

It was a struggle to get into the car since the car was so darn low. It felt kind of strange since I could not see the rest of the cars at eye level, which was kind of an irony since I thought the more expensive car should be 'looking down' on the cheaper cars instead. ;) And so we drove off. It was kind of noisy since we had the windows down. But the acceleration was cool though there was not much opportunity to do so since the roads were particularly crowded that night. It was a great chat with bro as he explained to be the difference between Porsche and other cars. Never knew there was a car with engines at the back and storage at the front! Yep, cars were never quite my thing. ;)

He decided to send my nephew home first before dropping me since we were staying quite close together. Guess he probably thought I would have more time to enjoy the ride. Actually I enjoyed the time spent with him more than the ride. He's such a positive influence to be around. Will probably write about him some time soon. Well, we finally reached my place. As we approached, he commented it would have been nice had I been dropped at the place (person) I would have wanted to impress. Haha. Anyway, thanks Bernard for the ride......

What I need right now

It does feel depressing to have much to say, yet have no one to talk to. Even when I spend time with my buddies, I feel the need to refrain from being too negative in my output. It's like life is already depressive enough, why do I want to dampen someone else's mood with my depressing thoughts and conversation. Sometimes I do not need solutions. I just need a listening ear. An unbiased listening ear. Just let me groan. Let me scream. Let me weep. Just be there while I do all that. Accept me for who I am and what I do, even when they don't fit what you think is norm. Humor me by just being there to listen to me. I know you may not agree with my philosophy in life but just be there and listen.  It's okay we don't share similar religious beliefs. It's okay we don't have the same upbringing. It's okay we are not in the same station in life. It's really okay.