I was siting beside my dad. Think we were on our way to the Emporium or something. As we got ready to leave the car, I told my dad I smelled satay.
Dad: "不要闻！爸爸放屁!"
Errr, could have told me earlier.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
DVDs anyone?
Wah Lau!
I thought that as I go about adding the finishing touches to my room and home, I would be overwhelmed with excitement. Unfortunately, it has not been so. Am I just tired or is there some other reason to it? I think I am starting to see more into what Jesus said when He talked about gaining the world but losing one's soul. I expected to return renewed and filled with a zest for life but I still seem to be dragging myself to do things. Okie, what am I to do?
I'm Back!
Actually I was back Sunday evening but have been busy with all the stuff that's been waiting for my attention. This trip has been both good and bad for me at the same time. Will write a little more as I clear up my chores......
Sunday, October 17, 2010
** Worship
As I stood in worship just now, God's presence was so strong. It's been a while I last felt His presence so strong. And He was very specific. I was thinking of my room renovation and I felt Him say so strongly:"all you ever wanted I have given to you." I felt so touched by that. It is true. All I ever wanted (within His will of course)He has given to me in due time. Just feel so overwhelmed.
Thank you Father......
Thank you Father......
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
A New Start
One of the things I am looking forward to is the new start when I return from the trip. Lots of things I will be starting again and possibly new things to try. In a sense I am excited. Yet with the excitement comes the knowledge that I have to push myself beyond my comfort zone a lot. Have really slaken a lot through the months and my legitimate excuse which has been my home reno is soon to be over. Really need wisdom in the things I wanna do. God, grant me insights and wisdom while I am serving You in Chang Mai. Amen!
Something New
I did something last night I did not think I would do. I signed up for a singing contest! Strange right? Felt that I really wanted to venture out in the music area and since this is a small scale contest, it might just be a good head start. Good thing the contest is in Jan, so I would have ample time to be prepared. Hmmmmm,.......
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Guilty Conscience
I tried my best to stare straight into her eyes but I really found it tough. I had just showed my colleague cum friend the video I had posted earlier about Jaslyn Tay and her wedding video. She was touched by it I could tell. After that she turned around and told me God also has the best plan for me. I was a little taken aback. Had I known such a response would come about, I might not have shown her the vid in the first place.
But she was right and we both knew it. Under normal circumstances I would be able to stare at anyone in the eyes till the extent they become uncomfortable. But this time it was me on the receiving end. My heart had been so hardened to this truth I do not seem to believe it anymore. Then she emphasized her point again. For some reason, I knew I should continue to look her in the eyes. Maybe doing so would convince her I do agree with what she said. Or maybe it would give a front that I do not have a problem with that at all. But it was really tough. It's as if I had committed some heinous crime and standing in front of a judge or what.
In a sense I have. Having walked with God all these years and having seen all He has done for me and showered me with, I find it difficult to surrender this area of my life to Him. She then said another thing which sent chills down my spine. She said that I should surrender my life to Him and for all I know I would become Anthony number 2. Anthony was our supervisor who is a very staunch believer. He has left us to pursue some theological studies. Having spent a number of years under him, I am convinced he is one of the most exemplary in Christian living I have ever witnessed. So hearing what my colleague mention about me being Anthony 2 sure did not sit well with me. Just get me through the day having thought of God a couple of times would already be a breakthrough for me.
Having gone through all these emotions I know for sure this is one area I need to resurrect in. I start to see the wisdom in: "God gives His best to those who trust Him." Think I really have a looooooong way to go. Thank God He has not given up on me.
"Hold my hand Lord......"
But she was right and we both knew it. Under normal circumstances I would be able to stare at anyone in the eyes till the extent they become uncomfortable. But this time it was me on the receiving end. My heart had been so hardened to this truth I do not seem to believe it anymore. Then she emphasized her point again. For some reason, I knew I should continue to look her in the eyes. Maybe doing so would convince her I do agree with what she said. Or maybe it would give a front that I do not have a problem with that at all. But it was really tough. It's as if I had committed some heinous crime and standing in front of a judge or what.
In a sense I have. Having walked with God all these years and having seen all He has done for me and showered me with, I find it difficult to surrender this area of my life to Him. She then said another thing which sent chills down my spine. She said that I should surrender my life to Him and for all I know I would become Anthony number 2. Anthony was our supervisor who is a very staunch believer. He has left us to pursue some theological studies. Having spent a number of years under him, I am convinced he is one of the most exemplary in Christian living I have ever witnessed. So hearing what my colleague mention about me being Anthony 2 sure did not sit well with me. Just get me through the day having thought of God a couple of times would already be a breakthrough for me.
Having gone through all these emotions I know for sure this is one area I need to resurrect in. I start to see the wisdom in: "God gives His best to those who trust Him." Think I really have a looooooong way to go. Thank God He has not given up on me.
"Hold my hand Lord......"
Monday, October 11, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Certs
Can't Sleep Again!
Can't quite figure why I am up at 6 a.m. on a Sunday morning. Ever since I got up to pee I could not get back to sleep. Ah well, might as well start penning down my thoughts.
It's really time to start getting my life in order. So many things I really need to start or continue. I wonder why I find it so difficult to move on in other aspects of my life when just one aspect is out of whack. I thought for men it is easier to compartmentalize our lives so I should be able to work on different aspects though one is under major repair.
Things on the pipe line:
1) Start learning swimming.
2) Continue with my ever growing list of musical instruments to learn.
3) Continue with my gym. Starting to lose tone already. Arrghh!
Sigh, Chang Mai trip is in one week. Frankly, I am not the least bit keen in going. Think I mentioned that before. It's like I really have to force myself to do it. To me, God has been good to me and this is the least I can do for Him. Already halted in my service to God for the longest time. Really should consider starting to serve again. Okie, that adds to my pipe line list.
4) Start serving God again.
Oh, I need to start saving as well. Gonna go Israel next March. Again, not too keen in going. Hmmm, seems like I am not in the mood for anything to do with God. Ooops.
Okay, at least one good thing that's happened is that part of my cupboard is up. Same for my toilet cabinet.
Only God knows exactly how long it took for these 2 items to be up in my room and how much pain it has caused in my emotions. My advise to all who are doing renovations: NEVER believe the time line they provide you with. NEVER pay them in full prior to completion of works. Gives you bargaining power if they haven't already earned enough from your previous payments. If possible, sign a contract with them with regards to the time line. The lesson I have learnt from these 2 or so months: NEVER be nice when dealing with them. ALWAYS be firm! Nuf said......
It's really time to start getting my life in order. So many things I really need to start or continue. I wonder why I find it so difficult to move on in other aspects of my life when just one aspect is out of whack. I thought for men it is easier to compartmentalize our lives so I should be able to work on different aspects though one is under major repair.
Things on the pipe line:
1) Start learning swimming.
2) Continue with my ever growing list of musical instruments to learn.
3) Continue with my gym. Starting to lose tone already. Arrghh!
Sigh, Chang Mai trip is in one week. Frankly, I am not the least bit keen in going. Think I mentioned that before. It's like I really have to force myself to do it. To me, God has been good to me and this is the least I can do for Him. Already halted in my service to God for the longest time. Really should consider starting to serve again. Okie, that adds to my pipe line list.
4) Start serving God again.
Oh, I need to start saving as well. Gonna go Israel next March. Again, not too keen in going. Hmmm, seems like I am not in the mood for anything to do with God. Ooops.
Okay, at least one good thing that's happened is that part of my cupboard is up. Same for my toilet cabinet.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
My Week
It has been a tough week for me. I have not felt so frustrated in a very long while. The feeling is really hard to describe but I thank God that this happens so seldom. Thank God I am recovering well too. It's amazing how one group of people can cause me such distress in my emotions. I am referring to my contractors who are doing up my place.
Trying not to bring up the details again to save my emotional well-being. But suffice to say, they have really given me hell for the amount my mum and I are paying them. Just grateful that it will soon be over, hopefully!
Trying not to bring up the details again to save my emotional well-being. But suffice to say, they have really given me hell for the amount my mum and I are paying them. Just grateful that it will soon be over, hopefully!
Interesting
Was looking at my stats in regards to people viewing this blog. I have people in Iraq, Romania and Italy reading pages from my blog. Hmmm.....
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Mum's BD Dinner 1
Here are the pics!
Will put up more pics soon......
The flowers for my mama.
Nice Right?
My Family Pics
Mum's Birthday Dinner
Last night, we celebrated mum's birthday at Sizzler' Suntec. Frankly, it's been a while I last saw mum so happy. Of course, the surprise mini party the night prior added to it. My aunt and cousins popped by on Sunday night to give mama a surprise party. Will post the video should I get a chance to.
To be frank I did not really enjoy last night but it was good nonetheless considering the fact the star of the night was not me. Couldn't help but feel like I did not belong somehow. Watching both families (my bro and my sis) bonding especially so for the kids, I felt a little awkward and lonely. Arr, think "lonely" is the right word. Again, the party was not about me so I shall not talk bout me anymore......
Managed to surprise mum a fair bit when I presented her with a bouquet of flowers. Apparently, to her this is the first time in her life she received flowers. After dinner, she was walking around outside the restaurant, seemingly parading her flowers. Frankly, I do not know if I should be proud or sad. I saw the look of content and smile of bliss on her face. The scene carried with it a joy that she appreciated her gift but with a tinge of grief realising that for a 61 year old woman not to have received flowers before (even from my dad).
I know she definitely enjoyed herself, having had her children and much more importantly her grandchildren with her during her birthday. I guess I should be content with that. Thank God for mum.
To be frank I did not really enjoy last night but it was good nonetheless considering the fact the star of the night was not me. Couldn't help but feel like I did not belong somehow. Watching both families (my bro and my sis) bonding especially so for the kids, I felt a little awkward and lonely. Arr, think "lonely" is the right word. Again, the party was not about me so I shall not talk bout me anymore......
Managed to surprise mum a fair bit when I presented her with a bouquet of flowers. Apparently, to her this is the first time in her life she received flowers. After dinner, she was walking around outside the restaurant, seemingly parading her flowers. Frankly, I do not know if I should be proud or sad. I saw the look of content and smile of bliss on her face. The scene carried with it a joy that she appreciated her gift but with a tinge of grief realising that for a 61 year old woman not to have received flowers before (even from my dad).
I know she definitely enjoyed herself, having had her children and much more importantly her grandchildren with her during her birthday. I guess I should be content with that. Thank God for mum.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Little Things I Remember: At The Malay Barber Shop
Must have been less than 10 years old then.
Malay barber: "come boy let's play a game."
He spun me around twice on his chair and proceeded to cut my hair. Duh! What sort of game is that??
Malay barber: "come boy let's play a game."
He spun me around twice on his chair and proceeded to cut my hair. Duh! What sort of game is that??
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