"Xian"

Feeling a little "xian" right now. Was told that I blundered in one of my work areas and it affected the HOD's operation on a patient. The worse part is that I have to wait till they are done with the operation before they can get the patient's info so we can find out what I did wrong. So that affected my morning. At first, I told God that its in His hands and I would not worry about it. By now, my mood is totally affected. Pissed. The worst part is if I find out that its not my fault, and I have been "xian" in vain. Then I would go kill the doctor who made that call to my supervisor this morning. My supervisor is taking a 'let's find out what went wrong and correct it to prevent future mishaps' stance. My other in charge is taking a 'don't worry about it. We'll see what happened' stance. I am taking a 'just wait till I find out I am innocent' stance. Hmmmm, we'll see.