Work today has been really busy to say the least. The clinic was packed. I was running around to help cover different rooms and to help out. Then something happened that brought about a series of cascades to my mood and well being. It started with a patient I checked the power of in the afternoon. His left eye was normal but his right eye had quite a high power and no matter how, I could not get his eye to perfect vision with glasses. I then used a pinhole to check his visual potential. After that, I realised that his visual potential was much better than the results I got with lenses. But no matter how I tried I just could not improve his vision any further. The best I got was 6/90. With pinhole he could reach 6/24. That was a vast difference. So I just wrote what I got and what his best visual potential was.
After some time, my supervisor called to ask why I wrote what I wrote. When she asked that, I knew something was coming up. I explained myself and after that, she asked if I could just leave out the pinhole part and she rewrite one for me. Which was fine with me. After that, just prior to a meeting which we were supposed to have, she walked into the room with the prescription I wrote for my patient. Apparently, the doctor who saw the patient went to her after I left the room (to return to my original workplace) to query why I gave such a prescription. So she and another supervisor saw my prescription and both disagreed with the way I wrote it. Actually, to me it seemed really obvious what I was implying when I wrote it. All it implied was that with my checks I could only get my patient to see 6/90 with glasses but with the pinhole my patient could see better. What was so complicated about that??????? I do admit though that I could have written down a sentence or two to better explain what I meant by that but to me its really weird that the doctor and even my supervisors (as trained optometrists) could not interprete or understand it.
Anyway, when she came in she started asking me questions as to how come that could happen and all that. Thinking back I did not really explain myself well cos I was still trying to figure out why my prescription did not make sense and why they could not understand it. But I must admit that I started to get defensive even though I am very convinced about my results. She then asked my questions about how my results were theoretically not possible to obtain and do I explain that. Duh, that's the bloody job of the eye doctors! If I had that much knowledge into the problems of the eye I would be an eye doc already! Then she also made comments like "I did not expect this from you." So do I always have to be on my toes everywhere I go. Just because I am experienced does not mean I am perfect! In the end we were pretty divided and did not really have a conclusion to the issue other than that I should write in a line or two to better explain myself the next time. Oh please. The next time I come across this, I will conveniently leave out whatever details that would cause this kind of debate again. Such a big fuss over this stupid issue, duh spare me.
Now for the WORST PART. After the little "harmless" debate we had, my supervisor brought up that the patient was a universal precaution patient. I.e HIV positive. The BLOODY DOCTOR who got me to check his patient knew that his patient was HIV +ve yet he did not have the courtesy to inform me so that I could do some basic precaution while seeing his patient. Usually, when a patient has HIV, the folders will have some form of identification. This one did not have and the doc obviously forgot to inform me or make a note of it. I really have the mind to lodge a complaint against him. If not for the fact that he is a nice person (other than today), I would have done it already. And while my supervisor and I were talking about this serious matter, my other supervisor just had to crack a joke that the eye doc cares for my supervisor more than for me since he informed her just before she checked the patient and not me. How BLOODY TACTLESS. For a female to make such a comment is just out of this world. I can totally understand if a male colleague made the comment I can understand cos guys can be pretty senseless sometimes. But for her to make such a comment,......
Okay, now that I have gotten it off my chest, it is time to chill. I remember my sis saying to her kid: "Let it go, you are bigger than this." Think I gotta tell myself as well: "Let it go Khai, you are bigger than this." Actually I am not bigger than this. One reason I will drop this is that I do not want my relationship with my colleagues to go sour over such a trivial issue. Also, I do feel a little tension between one of my supervisors and me. Don't wanna worsen it. Yap, and it is time to sleep as well. Loooonnnngggg day tomorrow.
"Father thank you that You are my vindicator. Thank you that in all these situations Your love for me does not change. Thank you for the strength You supply me with. In You I am secure."
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