Good And Bad

Today's been a good and bad day......

Good:
1) Gym session was great. Other than the session last Thursday, I have not been to the gym for about one and a half week. So being able to return today was superb, not to mention that I had more stamina today as well.
2) Lesson with my bro was great. Learnt a lot of stuff that I overlooked before. Had a lot of questions answered as well. Learnt that Jay Chou is born again! Whoopy, my idol is saved(what irony)! Next will be J...... :)

Bad:
1) Thank God it's only one point but think it's gonna be long. :(  As usual we talked about church. The sad part is that there is not much good stuff that surfaced during the conversation. Now I appreciate the mega churches a little more. It seems good to belong to a mega church (provided u r not in leadership position) cos as the main congregation, a lot of the bad news does not get passed down. Most of what you see on stage is a representation (at least to you) of how the church is doing. The bad stuff (if any) will tend to stay within the leadership level. So sometimes ignorance is bliss. Being in a place or rather being in such a small church, I seem to be able to get in on the "fresh" and "juiciest" news. Sometimes it makes me wonder how people can be like that.

I guess that it still boils down to expectations. I would expect the "leaders" to be more mature and more Christ-like. So maybe that's why every little thing that's out of my paradigm of maturity and Christ-likeness makes the person seem really bad. After hearing much about things in the church a question pops to mind. Why am I still around? I guess there are people whom I have a deeper relationship with so I guess that defers the idea somewhat. Another thing is that I do not want to leave just because of bad hats or bad things about the church. It's the push pull factor issue. And I want to be in the place where I will leave if I feel God saying so. If not, even though there is not much I can contribute now (after being taken out of pa totally and put out of playing into observation), I want to believe that God still has something for me here. So, until God says so, think I will stay. Wah, sounds so spiritual, I like...... :)