Surrender

I found myself in a scary place this morning. Was contemplating about a plan I am to execute during my absence from work during the third quater of the year. Prior to that, I was thinking about what God seems to be doing on the face of the Earth now and frankly that gave me the jitters. As much as I am aware I have been purposed for a time as this, I feel awfully inadequate to be all He wants me to be and to do all He wants me to do. Even the thought that He would supply all I need to fulfill His call was not much of a consolation. Then came the thought of giving up my plan in order to devote my time more fully to spiritual stuff. That was another stumbling block to me. Yes, I may not have been consistent in my pursuit of the plan but it's really one thing I desire to fulfill. So the thought of giving it up really added to my "sorrow". For now there's no clear yes or no from God but I guess I am appealing to His compassionate side. :) Let's wait and see......