Thursday, March 4, 2010

Things In My Head......

No. 1 What is the extent I would go to look better?
Just returned from having my blood drawn prior to going on medication for my acne problem. Next week I will be going to see my dermatologist to get the medication should the tests results be okay. For someone who is particular bout the kind of stuff I put into my body that is really a compromise. Even when my dermatologist got me to go on prolonged antibiotics I cringed. I was delighted to have finally got off the antibiotic treatment and now I am on to something even more potent, just to save my face. Good thing my company would absorb a large part of the treatment cost cos the medication is really expensive.

No. 2 Where do I get motivation to go back to my music routine?
I have not kept to any form of discipline when it comes to my music. I have no idea how I am gonna start again. Each time I realised a month has passed, I feel plagued by the guilt of not having practiced much and the potential I could have reached had I stuck to something for long.

No. 3 Why am I still alive?
I think one reason I felt a whole lot better after I returned from the Batam trip is because I did something I would not have normally done in a long while. I helped people. People who would not be able to repay me in the natural. So I guess that helped a little. There must be more to life......

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