I made it to lifegroup, late though. But I am proud of myself, I think. I knew I had to make it somehow, considering how erratic my emotions have been of late. hmmm, reminds me of the weather......
I know it definitely has done me some good though in the natural I may beg to differ. For one, I just could not get my mind of J as I made my way towards my destination. I keep thinking back to the little 'good nights' I would sms J, anticipating J's response. It was also during one lifegroup night last July that the isunderstanding sparked off. Even as I was worshiping God, I could feel my heart ache inside as I thought about J. The feeling was torturing.
My leader was sharing about the rapture of the church and how it brings hope to the believer. When he asked me about how I felt, I could only say was that the only thing that I was glad about the rapture is that it (all the bad stuff) will soon be over. One of the lifegroup members was excited and sharing about what God was speaking to him while he was at the prayer mountain in Korea. To be frank, I was totally detached from the whole conversation. What he said made sense, yet I was like in a totally different frequency. I just could not 'hear' what he was saying. Not too sure if I am making sense here. But as usual, I took my leave at 1030, since I was already tired, not to mention losing my attention span. So here I am, siting here blogging away and wondering if maybe my conscience is just too seared to hear anything anymore. Anyway, will leave that hanging for a while. Too tired to think right now......
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