It's funny cos I can feel my heart's heavy, of course not in a literal sense. Been going through disappointment after disappointment after disappointment,...... I know, the only person I can blame is myself. I know I can't blame God cos He's supposed to know best. I know I can't blame humans cos we are human after all. So I suppose that leaves me. I am the common denominator of all the disappointments in my life so it must be me.
It's sad that I have come to such a place in life. A place where I hardly feel any zest for life anymore. There seems to be nothing much to look forward to. Even going to KK with a good friend and HK with my best friend does not excite me the slightest. I am hoping that this KK trip would be a turning point in my life. Maybe I just need to get away from it all and just be in a new environment to see a new perspective of life.
So, what next? I wish I knew. I find it difficult to even still myself for a couple of minutes to pray. In fact, what's prayer? Who's God? For those of you who are believers do keep me in your prayers. There's nothing more scary than a person feeling that even God can't help him anymore.
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