How Long God? How Long???

Wonder how long more do I have to go on like this. It's really a struggle to say the least. To please God or myself? Seems pretty obvious doesn't it? Only problem is trying to keep to the decision. Kathryn Kuhlman once said:"I have died a thousand deaths". I can related so well to what she said. Though I have yet to reach a thousand, I definitely have crossed the hundred line...... Yet in the midst of all these, I am more than a conqueror? His grace is sufficient? I really need a shoulder to weep on. Jesus says,:"Here use Mine". :)