It's Coming

The month of October is coming. Just the thought of it saddens me. Cos its supposed to be the month J and I go for our Taiwan trip. Now that J is nowhere in sight, I suppose there will not be a Taiwan trip. It's as if I am still holding on to a glimmer of hope. I find it difficult to unblock the leave which I have set aside for that trip. In my logical mind, I would have given it up way earlier cos I am sure there would be other colleagues who would like to take leave then. But I have been procrastinating. Deep down I know that it is practically impossible for me to ever make the trip with J but I still find it difficult to release those days totally so that others can have it. How selfish of me. Anyway, as I always hear from preachers :" If the horse is dead for a long time, it is time to dismount!" Okay! It is time to give the slots up for others!