Scattered Thoughts

Actually I should be going to bed by now. Had a pretty long day today. But I shall take a while to blog before I start the dreaming process. Hmmm, seem to have a lot of thoughts going through my mind now. Let's see. Okay, received a sms from my sis before I had my dizi class just now. She mentioned that she was gonna have lunch with dad tomorrow. Wow, I know its a real step of faith for her. Now, I realise the full impact of it after I have read her blog. Would have recommended her blog to everyone but she just wanted it to stay personal, so too bad. Actually, I am on leave tomorrow afternoon and I am free to join them for lunch. But for some reason I just felt that I should not go. And nope sis its not a cop-out! :) After I read her blog, I came to realise all the more I should not be there. I can imagine the thoughts that are going through her even now. But she is right, this has to happen sooner than later. I am in prayerful mood right. I know that she will need all the help she can get. :) "Father, grant her strength......"

Today's dizi lesson went pretty okay. I quite enjoyed it. At first I was feeling a little inferior cos I could hear the student before me in class and his playing was similar to my teacher's playing. It was good. While chatting with my teacher in the midst of the lesson, I found out that he has been playing for bout 3 years already. Okay, that made me feel a little better. I further comforted myself that I should be proud that for a person who started learning dizi afew months back and at the age of 30, I seem to be doing ok. Sure I would need to put in more work, but I realise that God has been good to me in that my learning curve has been pretty ok. In fact, it seems that my piano and guitar skills need or rather should have been way better by now. Okay, that means more work. :( I know, I am really taking on more than I can handle. But stubborn me, still not willing to concentrate yet. In fact, I am so tempted to go buy a western flute and branch into it with my dizi background. Yes, contentment has never been a strength of mine. Think I really should marry some rich girl and then not work and do music full time. Yap, in my dreams. Which I better go into soon, if I want to have enough energy for tomorrow that is...... Okie, gotta run. Time to enter dreamland, where all impossibilities become possibilities, till you wake up! :)