A Fresh Start

Something unexpected happened. For some reason, I seem to be quite over J. Thought that it would take a long while for me to revert to norm. Today, I was pretty back to my 'normal' self, characterised by cracking jokes bout everything, talking nonsense, making fun of people, acting comical, etc. For the past couple of weeks, I was pretty much in depression so I was most of the time solemn which was kind of weird to my colleagues. Even my supervisor commented today that I am back to normal.

Do I still miss J? Sure I do. In fact, when my phone alerts me about a sms, unconsciously I would wish it was J. Also, I started learning this song that J likes, hoping to be able to play it for J one day. To me, its really hard to find someone with such similarities. We can chat for hours without end. We have similar likings. Only thing is that I do not speak jap (though I have been yearning to learn). J even drives my favorite car down to the color! So I still do find it a waste and I would love to at least have J as a friend if all else fails. Anytime J wants to, we can sart again where we left off. I have no qualms about that. Anyway, there is only so much I can do.....

But I sure am glad that I can start fresh. Depression definitely does not feel good. Worse when I can't seem to snap out of it. Thank God for His grace. For those of you who have been keeping me in your prayers, you have my heartfelt thanks......