Bad Mood Day

Yap it's one of those days. Thought I'd just let it all out here. It's been a really tough day today. Emotionally, I am so weary from all the frustrations going on inside. I guess it started from last night. Was at the wake of a church friend. While the Pastor was saying her opening prayer, I heard something like a piece of plastic sheet rubbing against something. When I opened my eyes, I realised it was a fellow church acquaintance (note my choice of words) trying to remove the straw of a packet drink from it's wrapper. I suppose the noise of it eluded that person but in that quiet room there were only two sounds audible: one was the Pastor's voice and the other was the plastic wrapper. You can imagine my disgust when I realised who was causing the din. It never fails to amuse me how people can be so insensitive to their surroundings. Seriously, that acquaintance irks me no end. I had to repent cos I seldom have such disgust and despise toward anyone. God had made me publicly apologised to that person once for looking down on that person and at the rate I was going, another public apology was on the way.......

Then there was today. Today's worship practice was a flop for me. For one, the drummer had issue with his playing and he was constantly corrected by my brother. Pity him though. Then there was my playing, on the keyboard. I was so glad when the worship leader, who is a personal friend prepared her songlist almost one week earlier so that I could have sufficient time to practice. I worked hard at it, preparing for the intricate details, listening to the songs over and over again to prepare them. Then today I could not reproduce most of what I practiced. I had to simplify my playing and most of the prepared stuff had to be removed. It was mixed feelings for me cos as much as I took time to prepare them, I had a problem trying to play them when under stress. So to a certain extent it was a relief but I felt it did not do the worship leader justice since she bothered to make sure I was comfortable by sending me the songs early. So I was quite disappointed with myself. Even after much practice, what I could play was miserable. I hated the feeling. I really wanted to quit......

Then there were my 2 nephews whom my brother wanted to tag along with me as I joined the worship leader and her hubby for lunch. We then went to Sushi Tei for lunch. I was so uncomfortable with the 2 brats coming along. Of course, they showed no mercy in ordering their food, since they were sure they were not the ones paying for it. Both wanted salmon roe and other stuff to go along with it. I doubted if the younger knew what it was but he insisted so I went along. But I threatened him that if he did not finish what he ordered I would spank him. Then the older one started to laugh at him and as a result he got a warning as well. Thankfully they both finished the food so I did not have to do what I promised to. In the end I paid for their lunch. Personally I would not even order such stuff for myself and yet I was at the mercy of the 2 brats. Sigh. Then one of them was actually rude to my friend. I shall not go into details before I end up really spanking him tomorrow at church. I realised the 2 of them really bring out the worst in me. During lunch I caught myself telling the older one to "just shut up and eat". So I know at least 3 people in my life who can bring out the 'devil' in me.

Since I have complained so much I suppose I might as well finish all that's on my heart. I paid a visit to a new TCM physician yesterday for my stomach issues. The conclusion was that I was stressed and I was thinking too much. The thinking too much part I fully agree. My sis has been telling me that for the longest time. What was scary was the stressed part. I figured I should have reduced my stress a fair bit of late but apparently it wasn't enough. Great! But then again with such people in my life, I guess it's legitimate to be stressed. Only problem is that I am experiencing the symptoms while they go scot-free! God I really need help man. :(

Enough Said

Service Line

After having a short encounter with a customer who had an attitude problem during my work at my part time workplace, I realised the importance of treating people nice. This joker came in just now with his niece who had broken her spectacles. I was the one serving him. For some reason he had this impression that it was like super easy to find a frame exactly the same design and same size as the one his niece had. So he told me to look for one to transfer the lens over. I saw the frame and I realised we do not carry the same brand of frame and so the next thing was to a frame as close in terms of size and design to the broken one and size down the lens to the new frame. I double confirmed that we do not carry the same brand and continued my search for the next best thing. Then he became impatient and told me that I should just find the same one and change the lens over. DUMB ASS! So I had to explain to him that all frames vary in size and design and it is not possible to find an exact replica except under the same brand. Errr, seriously, who's supposed to be the expert here?

After we sourced out a couple of frames for the niece to try came the next problem, he wanted to collect the spectacles before the day is over which is like one hour. Of course, the already irritated me told him straight off that it could not be done. Even my colleague confirmed that it could not be done. Since we do not open on Sundays, the next available day to collect the spectacles would be on Monday, much to my delight. Yes, very petty of me. :) Then my big boss came around and decided to be the nice guy and agreed to help them. Ohhhhhhh crap! My delight quickly turned to dismay. Okay, my next shot at him would be the price of the frame. Usually, we would give our customers a 10% discount of the retail price of the frames as a gesture of goodwill. NOT THIS TIME I told myself. So while my boss was busy doing the lens, I told him to charge the full price. Then I need to see another customer so I did not get to do the billing for the joker. Later I found out that my boss heard me wrongly and quoted a slightly discounted price to the customer! ARRRRRRGHHH!

Yes I know I deserved all that was came to me but man was life unfair. Anyway all these are beside the point. My point is that we better be nice to front line people cos there's a lot of things they can do to help or hurt you. Of course, I am sure that I am one of the very few who could be so petty and go all out to make people pay for their bad attitude. Then again, only God knows how many times people would have helped make your life a little better had you been nicer to them. Maybe, they'll be more willing to close a little later to help you. Maybe they have contacts they are willing to share that can give you an edge. Okay, the conclusion is simple...... BE NICE TO PEOPLE! ;)