It's Christmas again. It's amazing how time really flies. Before you know it, another year has passed. Right in the midst of Christmas day itself I find myself siting by my com and deep in contemplation. I suppose for most this should be a 'party' day. As much as I wanted to make it so, I really wanted to chill at home, after going through a number of hectic weeks. So after service I went to the gym for a short session and decided to call it quits. Came home and decided to start my chill routine first by watching a DVD.
Talking about Christmas service, this is the first after such a long time I am up in the backup team during worship. It was quite a good feeling. Other than the irritation of having a self-appointed backup leader trying to choreograph the movements for backup team (like how we should move and clap and do actions :( ) and an irritating partner whom I failed so miserably trying to humor his 'unfunny' and uninteresting jokes and comments, everything else went fine. Don't get me wrong, they are nice people. Maybe that's the problem. I tend not to be blunt to nice people. But seriously I do hope I can keep some consistency in doing some kind of ministry for God. I have slacked so much and He really does not deserve any of that.
I was touched during the worship of the first service. It was good. As much as I do not want to turn church into an emotional rut everytime, I think I can make do with more touches from God. I need all the help I can get. I really want to finish well for the rest of my journey here. I feel I have wasted too much time on myself, without any results. Okay, trying not to be too emo on this special day. Time to go chill......
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