I was reading a friend's facebook recently and he was asking for advice on which program to look into to help him achieve his goals. Then I realised that it has been a long time since I had any worthy goal in life. Since I came out of my thing with J, it's as if all my dreams and goals (if I had any) died with the relationship. Since then I have been cruising along with life, just trying to lie low. As much as I realise the danger of it, I seem to have sunk in too deep into the comfort it offers. When my supervisors ask about my plans, I simply answer them I have no plans and I am just walking through a day at a time.
That's for work. Unfortunately, it doesn't seem to be any different for other aspects of my life. I am sucked into a rut where I just respond to what comes and I do not have any vision of the future. I think there's a couple of reasons for that.....
One reason I think is because of the teaching I received last one of my previous churches. The pastor was almost implying (at least I felt so) that as long as you are walking with God, goals are not important. I think another reason is that subconsciously I feel that non "spiritual" goals are not worth pursuing at all. Yeah, think it's something like that. Ouch. Think this is too much thinking at 3 in the morning! Think I will continue another time......
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