Wednesday, December 1, 2010

1st December 2010

I realised it's been a while since I last blogged. Somehow I do not seem to have anything I wanna talk about of late, until today......

It's already the end of the year. It really scares me to realise how the year has slipped past my hands without anything much accomplished. I think I will be the most miserable person when I see Jesus face to face. I know He has given me a lot. But I really have used so little relative to it. I was just looking through some websites on self-improvement and I recall somewhat the drive and ambitions I had when I first started work. I was going for the world man. Now, I feel like some turtle or something with my head shrunk in my own little world, oblivious to what's happening around me.

From this I have gathered 3 conclusions:

1) Comfort zone is one of the biggest dream killers known to man, or maybe just me. Many aspects in my life I have settled for without much of a fight anymore, though I know I am bigger than that. Somehow, I just do not want to put in any effort to fight anymore for any thing.
2) I am not driven. I have been told that what I really lack is a vision. Maybe so. If so, the vision better be big enough to supply me with the strength to crawl out of my stupor. Right now, I question whether if I do get one in my life, would I wanna go through the rut of starting my engine all over again to make a go at it.
3) I am by nature lazy. Knowing all these about me and my character, I will not be surprised if I go home tonight and immediately dig out my library of blu-rays and dvds for a movie to watch.......

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