Frustrated

Was really relieved yet frustrated with myself just now. Managed to push myself to call my dad to wish him happy birthday finally. Actually the process went pretty ok so that was the relieving part. The frustrating part was that I had to go through so much dread in order to get this done. I remember that at least one week ago, I have already started dreading the fact that I would have to make the call. Each time, I conduct checks for my patients, there is usually a slot on the result slip that I have to fill in the date of the check. So most of the times I filled the date, it was another reminder that july 15 was drawing near. 10/7/09, 11/7/09, 12/7/09.......15/7/09! Sigh. Why do I have to go through so much just to keep a relationship going. I thought that a simple relationship between father and son should not be that tough to maintain. Maybe its just me. Could it be that its really all just in my mind? I do not dare to answer. Don't have the time nor energy to find out. Anyway, now that this is temporarily over, guess I will just take things as they come and not be overly emo bout it.......