Describes how I am feeling right now. Just went through my judgement day (aka appraisal day) yesterday. Was still hoping to get an above expectation rating, which meant another half month of pay extra. Unfortunately I was disappointed. In a sense, I feel like I do not deserve it since I did not have an exceptional contribution to the clinic last year. Yet, I felt like I deserved it since there will be others who do not do as well or contribute as much and yet will get the same rating.
Anyway, been feeling quite stressed and sian at work of late. Feel like I am busy trying to put out fire and do damage control for others. Kind of tired. Was a little pumped from the trip but now I feel like just 2 days of work have drained me of everything. Of course, it is not solely a work issue. I am also trying to juggle other stuff and challenges in life which have surfaced in an untimely fashion. Would have taken it better if I had a chance to tackle things one at a time instead of all at once.
I realised only today that I have long forgotten 1 Peter 5:7. Now I struggle at the thought God cares about me affectionately and watchfully as well. Need to start meditating on that verse again......
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