It felt good to be used by God. I think possibly at the back of my mind, there is this naggy feeling that God's through with me after so long.
Was on my way back from getting tea for a church friend when I bumped into another friend. I thought it was just a hi-bye thingy but we actually chatted for a while. She was sharing with me how she was at a crossroad in her work and was contemplating a big jump into an area she's really not experienced in. We talked a little before I initiated to pray for her, which is another biggie cos I do not have the habit of doing so. I prayed for her and released a word to her. That was really good!
Then on my way to the gents prior to worship I bumped into my life group leader Dawn who encouraged me in regards to my sharing on Friday before I led the group into worship. She said that I shared a verse she shared with a friend on the same day and gave her a perspective of that verse (James 4:8) which she had never seen before. She then encouraged me with a word which was to go crazy for sharing and worship. So that was encouraging to me. That God would use me now. But during worship I felt God tell me that those are not the important stuff. What He really wants is me. Wow, I thought that would encourage me. But, it did not seem to. Cos it seems easier to do things for God then to give Him me. To surrender myself in absolute abandonment to Him seems really tough to say the least. I seriously doubt I can do it. But then again, what else is there to do?
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