Prophecy

It was a new experience for me yesterday for the 3rd module of RTF. I have never had so many people prophesying over me in one session. The leader decided to do something different and had every single member of his team prophesy over every single person who was at the session. So I ended up with 5 prophecies and have another 3 more to go this coming Sunday. I would never queue for prophecy cos I never believed in asking for a prophecy. At the back of my mind, it seems immature to have to go around looking for prophecies instead of God bringing it to you on a prn basis. So the experience was really new to me. But it was also a really encouraging experience for me. Every prophecy spoken over me was so encouraging and edifying for me I was moved to tears.

One major lesson I learnt form the session was about forgiveness. In times past, I have been taught the importance of forgiving the person who has offended me. But one very major step was left out in the process and that was to let God heal the hurt caused. That was really new to me. Very often, I thought the only step to do after being offended was to forgive the person and that was it. That's a reason many people can pray the forgiveness prayer and yet not move on because the hurt's still around! Going through the session, I felt quite resentful against my former pastor. During my teenage years I was so hungry for God's word I practically devoured all the teachings my former pastor had given. That was good but he left out so much of other teachings I never realised I was becoming lopsided in my foundation.

LOL. I guess I need to go through the forgiveness as well as let God heal the hurt as well. Just kidding. But this really goes to show the importance of having a balanced word diet. In the midst of the teaching module I could relate to almost every symptom the teacher was talking about in the context of having been hurt. I was expecting a major breakdown when he ministered to me during the demonstration. But he felt God wanted to do the session coming week instead. So I was spared, for a week that is. In a sense I am kind of apprehensive of  what's gonna happen this Sunday. Yet, I think there's a hidden excitement since I am more than aware there are tons of issues within me that need to be dealt with. God have mercy on me......