Another Day

Relative to my rate of blogging previously, this blog would have been considered dead. Anyway, I am back. Have not had the mood to blog of late though the thoughts have still been pretty much flowing. Yesterday was a tough day especially towards the evening. I thought that I would be able to take my mind off stuff by catching a movie. Wrong. So wrong. Maybe it was the location. Maybe it was the fact I was watching it alone. Think it's just me.

To me it's the stigma of watching a movie alone. Especially when I see couples or groups of people catch a movie together. To me, it's kind of 'loser' to be doing things alone. Of course, I know of people who are married or attached who would want some time alone to do stuff on their own. And of course I'd rather have the choice than no choice at all.

I always believed that watching movies or serials are good cos they take my mind off issues and put me in a whole different world till its over. Think that's starting to change. Even in the movie (despite the fact it was pretty entertaining), my thoughts were still drifting towards J. On my way home after that, I realised its my one year anniversary of being dumped by J. How time flies. Worse was when I realised the feelings were pretty much as strong as then. Talk about moving on in life. Amazingly, there's still a small hope inside of me that J would one day 'repent' and decide to be friends again. Think I have been too hopeful for too many things in life.

When I was home, I knew I had to do something about it and soon for that matter. I already felt the depression budging in without even knocking. How rude! So I sat in front of my com and I played the song which I will embed for your listening pleasure. Played it a couple of times and I went to bed with 2 Tim 1:7 on my mind. I knew as much as I really miss J, that direction would only bring me more heart pain......