2013?

I find it hard to be excited about coming into a new year. After doing it for 34 years, I seriously do not understand how people can be so excited about the new year. Having said that, I can understand why people yearn for the new year. I guess to some, it means a new start. It means psychologically being able to bury the past year and to start afresh. It's a clean slate of sorts. Unfortunately for me, I have become paranoid and less hopeful for the new year since I blow up every year like I do the previous. It's sad I know but somehow the saying seems to hold true: Do not hope and then you won't be disappointed...... My apologies for such a negative blog start to 2013. Just wanted to pen down my thoughts, however negative they may be.

I think this is the first year I do not have any resolutions. It has finally dawned on me the worthlessness of new year resolutions since I do not accomplish them at all. So am I a year wiser finally? No doubt resolutions bring about a sense of hope of change. I guess it just does not work for me. I can just see the whole year ahead: work, home, friends, work, home, friends,...... I think I need a jot of sorts to wake me up. Somebody just slap me please.....