Plans For Next Year

This year's mission trip took on a different twist when I found myself contemplating on what I want to do for 2015. Been really tired out by work and kind of feel like my time at my present workplace is coming to an end. Even though the workload is not even near my peak previously, the grace seems to be eluding me. I took the time during the 1 week trip to really think about what I want to do and I seem to have come to a conclusion: to leave. So I have decided to tender my resignation on the 2nd of January 2015. An idea also came for me to spend about a month in Chang Mai to really chill and recuperate. At first I thought of spending it at an orphanage at a rural area which I spent a couple of nights at during the trip. It was a simple house with simple amenities. No air-conditioning, only fans. Simple food since the Pastor who runs it has limited resources. Then I thought of spending the mouth at the Chang Mai city instead. Found a service apartment which has a pool as well as a gym. Being the spoiled brat I am, the city seems like a far better idea..... Well, maybe I should do both...... We'll see.......

Think I'm Back

Can't believe the last post I did was January 2013! That's like one and a quarter year ago. It never fails to amaze me how time seems to whisk by so quickly. I was on my way back from Chang Mai earlier this evening and was contemplating on resurrecting this blog, yet again. I guess I do not have many other outlets for my emotions other than through this blog. I guess this might be a good thing to do once again, so I can keep track of my journey along the way. So much has transpired just in a year alone I am just beyond words. Now, the challenge is to find consistency and discipline to start again and continue with it. God, help......

Hope

 
 Romans 15:13 - Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. (NASB)

I must admit I started 2013 with a sense of hopelessness. Thinking about it, I believe the worst emotion to ever have is hopelessness. What meaning is there to life when a person does not feel any hope at all? I guess it is fair to say one of the main reasons why people contemplate suicide is because of hopelessness? Thank God I have not arrived at that stage yet, though I do feel like I am edging towards it from time to time. One day, I started to meditate on the verse above cos I felt that life is not meant to be lived without any sense of hope. Thank God He started to minister life to me from that verse. Now there's still hope life can be fulfilling and meaningful......

2013?

I find it hard to be excited about coming into a new year. After doing it for 34 years, I seriously do not understand how people can be so excited about the new year. Having said that, I can understand why people yearn for the new year. I guess to some, it means a new start. It means psychologically being able to bury the past year and to start afresh. It's a clean slate of sorts. Unfortunately for me, I have become paranoid and less hopeful for the new year since I blow up every year like I do the previous. It's sad I know but somehow the saying seems to hold true: Do not hope and then you won't be disappointed...... My apologies for such a negative blog start to 2013. Just wanted to pen down my thoughts, however negative they may be.

I think this is the first year I do not have any resolutions. It has finally dawned on me the worthlessness of new year resolutions since I do not accomplish them at all. So am I a year wiser finally? No doubt resolutions bring about a sense of hope of change. I guess it just does not work for me. I can just see the whole year ahead: work, home, friends, work, home, friends,...... I think I need a jot of sorts to wake me up. Somebody just slap me please.....

Lessons from Movies: Wreck-It Ralph

I decided to watch a less violent movie since my intake of movies of late have been pretty violent. Thought I'd fast a little from such movies and go for something more "clean". Also, I was accompanied by a 15 year old so all the more I figured I should catch something less polluting to the 15 year old mind. And thus, I ended up with 'Wreck-It Ralph'. No regrets cos it was one of the better movies I have caught of late. I love watching cartoons, especially Disney ones since the good guys will always win and the bad guys always die. Guess that philosophy fits my ideal view of life, which of course ain't practical or real at all. But I am hopeful......

The story is about a 'bad' guy (Ralph) in a computer game who is sick of being the bad guy who destroys things (thus came about the movie title) and decides to become good. As a result of that, he ends up ruining another game world because he decides to leave his in order to get a medal so he could get the recognition he wanted. He meets a girl who was condemned because she was a glitch in another game and helps her to win in her game which finally restored her to her original position, a princess. So he ends up being a hero and in the midst of it learns to be content in being the 'bad' guy in his game in order to keep the game going.

I really enjoyed the humor of the cartoon  a lot. It also reminded me of what the apostle Paul spoke about in the book of Corinthians in which every part of the body of Christ has something to contribute, no matter how big or small it may seem.

Think I'll probably get the DVD when it comes out. It's definitely worth collecting......