Going Off

Now sipping my Milo at Wang in T3 while waiting for my friend. Soon I'll be going to the budget terminal to fly to Phuket. I realised how tired I was when I tried to order eggs and I asked for tea instead. Looking forward......

When The Walls Come Crumbling Down

It's not that I enjoy writing "emo" posts. It's that my emotions have really been out of whack prior to me leaving for London. Today I finally realised I should have made going to Israel a priority instead of London. I tried to kick up all my good habits prior to London and it has been the hardest thing to do. Take for example gymming. Ever I came back I have been sick since. So it's been effectively a month since I last worked out. I can feel myself losing my tone and I am sure others have noticed as well. So much so for wanting to go to the beaches of Phuket with a toned body. The same goes for my guitar, keyboard and voice as well. Right now as I am typing this post, I am in the midst of doing my SS as well. Thank God so far so good.

As I mentioned, I have been sick since I returned from London. It started with 'URTI' and my stomach started to get involved. It became so bad that I crawled back to my Chinese physician. I cannot understand why the good doctors always have their clinics situated at places so far from home or work. Anyway I am finally getting better physically and tomorrow I think I will go back for a review to make I am fit to fully enjoy my Phuket trip.

Oh yes then there is the spiritual side. It's been a long while since I missed three Sundays at one time. And I surely paid a price for it. My emotions have been as down as my spiritual life. Life really lost its luster and I have been so weak against sin. So glad I am starting to get things back in order. Don't think I'll ever attempt such a stunt anymore. Hmmmm, is there any church in Phuket?

Acceptance

I learned a fair bit from this trip I took to London. I realised how much I crave acceptance from others. It's funny how I have never really been sensitive to this before. I have never been sensitive to being slighted or despised because of my race. I have heard of racism from the caucasians before but it's either I really never had experienced it firsthand before or I am being overly sensitive during this trip. On a number of occasions I felt slighted by the people I came across with the worse being from the people in Paris. I have been warned about them not being very helpful to English speaking people by the landlady but it's another thing to experience it firsthand. To be fair, the majority of people were really nice as a whole but I suppose I was locked into the "black sheep" of the lot.

I traveled with a group of my colleagues initially and continued my trip with one colleague while the rest headed back home after the business was taken care off. To be frank I was often annoyed with my colleague due to the little differences we had. Trust me. I usually am pretty accommodating but for some reason, many of the little nuances bothered me. The worst was the fact my colleague chewed with his mouth open. That really irritated me. On a side note, while having dinner with my 2 nephews just now, I realised both of them chew with their mouths open. Eeewwww! The ironic thing is that their father (my brother) used to bark at me for chewing with my mouth open when I was really young. I suppose it's karma. :) Back to the topic. My colleague also made little comments here and there which irritated me as well. Frankly, they were not hurting words or anything but again just little nuances.

All these made me struggle inside. Here I am wanting and hoping people would accept me just as I am. Yet, I can't seem to extend that kind of acceptance to others. My conclusion at the end of the whole thing is that I am just screwed! Hopefully this will be just one of those freak incidences whereby my mood is just all over the place. Or maybe it's just the jet lag. Yah, it must be the jet lag......

In A Split Second

It's amazing how in a split second my mood can change so fast. I was not in a fantastic mood already. Then I found out one of my closer friend's wife is pregnant. As if that was not enough, he told me another close friend's wife is pregnant as well. I guess I got no feelings to hide in here. That means we'll all get to spend less time together, as if it's not already bad enough. I have already promised myself I'll steer clear of wedding invitations. Great! Soon I'll be steering off one month celebrations as well. Sigh. Someone just kill me......

Back From London

Finally! Frankly, of my number of trips so far, there as not been one which I so so desire to return home from. The sad part is that it's mostly me that has caused me not to enjoy the trip to the max. Anyway, no point crying over spilled milk now. Hope to upload some photos really soon......