Something I Noticed

Today something interesting happened at work today. One of my colleagues had a quarrel with another colleague. They used to be a couple but they split recently. As such, things have been a little tense between them. Actually I wanted to mind my own business and just not get involved in any way. It's not as if I do not have my own issues to deal with. But I actually got to listen to both sides of the story about how the thing started,......

It was interesting how each presented their own side of the story which made their cause valid. Had I only listened to only one side, I would have been convinced that the side I listened to was right. After I listened to both sides, I realised how we can leave out or overlook details which are not to our advantage. I don't mean to take sides or judge anyone cause I could be one of them as well.

Recently, I fell out with a friend. And in my mind I could easily justify how I was not wrong at all and in fact my friend was the one who was just being petty. But after today's incident I realised that I could be wrong as well. All too often, maybe because of my insecurities, I could easily put up excuses to justify my cause and make myself feel vindicated. Only problem is that my friend would not even respond to my sms, so I am left guessing where I could have gone wrong. So sad. Just when I thought I had found a soul mate, I lost that friend. Sigh,......

My Apologies

For everyone who have been following my blog so far, I would like to apologise cause my blog has been pretty 'dark' and 'gloomy' of late. I have been trying to pursue a relationship that I know that I should not and that God would not be pleased with. God has been dealing with me and I have been rebelling. So do bear with me while I sort out my thoughts and emotions in the midst of these trying times.

God is Doing Something

Not too sure if I like it but God seems to be closing all to the doors to what I am seeking for. I know that there are a number praying earnestly for me and God is not about to let me go. I guess that's where the turmoil is. I wish on one hand God would just let me be. But I know that I cannot see an end to where this road leads. God sees it and He sure does not want me down this path. Why am I so stubborn? Why do I choose to hurt those who love me the most? My colleague whom I told my problem, asked me out for lunch yesterday just to talk to me. She was not pushy. She knew that it not was the answer. After our talk, she assured me of our friendship. What can I say? I am such a jerk. I know she is praying for me as well.

When I told one of my army friends last week during dinner, he was shocked at first but he finally dropped me a note to assure me of our friendship. Hmmm, seems like it really takes a disaster to make me realise who are my friends.

I am shaken inside. Should I just yield myself and completely trust God that He knows best? But what about my needs? My emotional needs? My physical needs?

The Other J

misses

Definition: FEEL OR SUFFER THE LACK OF